"It's times like these, you learn to live again
It's times like these, you give and give again
It's times like these, you learn to love again
It's times like these, time and time again.."
- Foo Fighters
To tell you the truth, to be "Sugar" in this lovely blog of ours can be quite daunting and I must say, a heavy task to carry and execute. Because just like you, you and you, I am a normal person too, with emotions that can take a turn for the worst on bad days and I won't be so "sugary" like I might seem to appear. And the result of this is, I feel like I've failed. Myself and others. I don't want to do that, and despite how negative I can be sometimes, I believe I still have an extra advantage over other people; it is that I can be naively optimistic, so much more than the average person. "Naive" there can be a negative connotation, if you want it to be and I thought so too at first, even allowed myself to feel sad about it, but you know what? I don't care if I'm naive about optimism, I don't care if I think everyone has a good heart, or no matter how bad they may seem, of the things they say and do, there's still a glimmer of hope of kindness in them because I just have that strong of a faith.
When people hurt me, I feel like I'm a pushover, letting them walk all over me just because I'm nice. And then I'd feel so stupid because I'd actually put that high amount of trust in them, when I can choose not to. Consequently, my anger and frustration would take over and I'll stride negatively on some hell road I never knew I had in me. I would think, " Screw these people" and consider to change how I view things; to hurt them back. I would actually go on about this for hours, and days even, for chronic situations and my real, true self seems to disappear into God-knows-where. However, this "new" me tires me down, because it is not me. I'm playing a person, an angry alter-ego whom I know will and never should take over the "real" me and then after major rationalizing (and praying), I will be okay again.
What I didn't realize was I had strength in me all along. Wonder Woman kind of strength. Because after every disappointment, I'll go back to being happy and see life in a positive light. The many times I have told myself to be strong and shove sadness away and think I've failed to do so is not true. Many people think they have but they don't. Because they would overcome it eventually and that means, you are strong.
The process is fairly simple;
- You get hurt
- You forgive (because you are so much better than the other person)
- You make truce
- Situation resolved.
But what a smart person would do is to not let him or herself get hurt time and time again and instead, learn from what had happened and be positive about it. Every single thing in life is a choice and it is yours to make. So what I've chosen to do is to mope (which isn't recommended but definitely helps!), vent, forgive, and move on. Give it a try, and I think you'll feel so much lighter, literally and figuratively. Goodnight, enjoy the remaining hour of your lovely Sunday.
- Sugar xo
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